Thursday, September 14, 2006

OUTSIDE


It's hard to explain

Inherently it's just always been strange

Neither here nor there

Always somewhat out of place everywhere

Ambiguous

Without a sense of belonging to touch

Somewhere halfway

Feeling there's no one completely the same


Standing alone

Eager to just

Believe it's good enough to be what

You really are

But in your heart

Uncertainty forever lies

And you'll always be

Somewhere on the

Outside



Early on, you face

The realization you don't have a space

Where you fit in

And recognize you

Were born to exist


And it's hard

And it's hard

And it's hard



Irreversibly

Falling in between

And it's hard

And it's hard

To be understood

As you are

As you are

Oh, and God knows

That you're standing on your own

Blind and unguided

Into a world divided

You're thrown

Where you're never quite the same

Although you try - try and try

To tell yourself

You really are

But in your heart - uncertainty forever lies

And you'll always be

Somewhere on the outside

You'll always be

Somewhere on the outside



Mariah Carey-Butterfly

Monday, September 04, 2006

Malaysia's astronauts: UKM doctor, army dental officer set for space

Reported, the Star (4th Sep 2006)
Look like he is the favorite . He is damn hot. He is a doctor, model, businessman; and now aspiring astronaut?

Saturday, June 24, 2006

1 in a million? Man?

Just watched One-in-a-million over 8TV. This singing contest/reality show was damned boring! I still like the original "Idol" show. Talking about the show, the male host sucks, so dumb, boring and unattractive too. Can't even recall his name. Marion seemed to be not so energetic. She was so different from when she was on Quick TV. Not to mention, all the guy participants suck too, unattractive and unpalatable, no wonder only a handfuls were short-listed to the next round. Disappointed!

I really miss my handsome Jien.
"What kind of woman turns you on? What is your ideal woman?
My ideal women is fictitious. I don’t think it would be ideal, but a woman that I would be attracted to would be someone whom I can get along with. Down to earth. Makes me comfortable. I would like her to be tomboyish. She can be in jeans, t-shirts, sneakers, whatever. She doesn’t need to wear a skirt. But if there was an occasion, she must know how to dress up."

What about man?

"Are you still single? What’s the best thing about being single?

I have a girlfriend. So what’s the best part of being in a relationship? It’s nice to have someone in your life. Someone to talk to. Eat together. Go out together. Laugh together. I’m actually quite happy alone. I’m the type of guy who can be happy alone. I need to have someone all the time. But it’s just nice to have someone by your side."

Can I be you boyfriend?

"What is your favourite colour? Are there colours you would never wear?
Blue. I have blue shirts. Blue jeans. Blue shoes. Blue socks. Blue watches."

My favourite color too!

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Interview With Clarins Men
Interview With Mobileworld
Rahsia Jien Awet Muda

Tuesday, February 14, 2006

14th February

What so special about today? Somehow sweet memories kept coming back. It was 14th February 2001, the day I first dated a guy, on Valentine's day! This guy was my former colleague. The first time I set my eyes on him, I felt a very deep connection with him. He wasn't so good-looking or cute, somehow he has got some "X" factor, that attracted my attention. I wanted to get to know him more and always wanted to ask him out, but didn't have the gut. I was always worried he might have thought otherwise about going out with guys. It was late at night and loneliness almost killed me. After work, I asked whether he was free and mind going out with me for a supper. Surprisingly and to me delight, he said yes! There went, a wonderful outing with this interesting guy, full of humors, and he could chat on anything, from girls, guys, politics, entertainment, to sex. Subsequently, we had more outings together, usually for dinner or supper. Everytime, he wasn't around, I would miss him so much. Our "affair" only lasted three months. Until today, I still think of him. We went separate ways after our training. I wasn't sure whether he was interested in guys, but I probably did. I had a deep crush and went crazy over him. I was heart-broken after that. Sweet memories remain as dream nowadays. Happy Valentine's day.

Saturday, February 11, 2006

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